38th Parallel

that day was the greatest day of my life so far. i never imagined someone like you would just appear and say hello. i never thought i could love again. that day was the beginning of the most passionate emotion i have ever felt. that day brought such grace that filled my whole life. that day...

you came late but you still made an impact by bringing the coolest water that flows from the tundra. you assure yourself to spread the blossoms of the flowers that came from persia. you are proud that you fell in love with persia and enjoyed it's warm embrace and beautiful thoughts intended just for you.

i never knew then that, that place enticed your heart and pleased your soul and when i found out i was a bit sad that i just can't give this love for you. persia's just too much for me. i thought i would love that place but i remember; my tomb is in susa.

i enjoyed learning about carcinogens and how will it affect some diseases and syndromes. i discussed it with different miuchi but they all gave me the same answer. i need to accept the reality of this life. is the life i'm living in, a hoax?

i thought that there's a mutual relationship. i even enjoyed travelling the distance. we enjoyed as the time passed by but then the water just turned into ice and changed everything around us. i thought you knew me and i thought i knew you but all of those things changed.

i was depressed and kept on thinking if i've done anything wrong. i thought i pushed you away towards scotland but i was wrong. i realized that i put malice in it. i thought we were in philadelphia but the place is not philadelphia; it is the 38th parallel. i'm in the north; you're in the south. i realized you don't want to go to the north ever since and it's just funny how i always convince you to stay. i can't go to the south. they'll kill me. i'm the only hope to continue the bloodline. i'm the only hope to raise our family's pride.

thank God he gave me wisdom and realized that i'm the only one in love. i know love is perfect that's why i let go. i'll just stay here and wait...

Phragmidium Mucronatum

manipulation of the truth is an abomination to God's given freedom. demons are deceivers and they can change their form from the nicest child to the most holy man that this world may know. maybe we're not aware but some of them can go to church and stand in the altar; preaching the Word. naively, they will teach you how to hate, manipulate your family's principles, and may even turn your friends and your own kin against you.

they expect you to believe in them. follow them. if not; they will even take out some verses from the Holy Book to use against your doubt. if they realized you're not satisfied with their leadership, they will tell the whole congregation that you are a rebel. they will preach that you do not know how to be submissive and again, took out some words from the Bible; "touch not my anointed."

their weakness is luxury. they love it so much, they will use the Word of God to get them. they are envious of each other. they love to imitate the success of the parasites before them that already devoured the world. they will use your belief, your family's wealth, and your wisdom for their own good. they are like wild dogs. they'll leave you nothing.

they would dream of the biggest place that they may have. they would dream of private jets, personal servants, and signature clothes. they would even brag it to the whole congregation yet they'll do it unnoticed. the congregation would see it as a blessing from God without knowing that they're diving into the mud of poverty. they are good manipulators that even if you finished degrees from the most prestigious universities; it won't do any good.

you'll find it hard to believe but there are signs. first sign would be self-pity. they'll show the world that they have nothing but the grace of God. they will tell everyone about their miseries; what they have gone through.

second sign would be superiority. they would want you to give them the highest respect. they would brag that they are in the status not the same as yours and that you should show the uttermost regard that you can. you cannot go against them because of their status.

third sign would be your inferiority. they would order you to do things just like how a king orders his servants. you'll just continue to follow them without any salary.

fourth sign would be greed. they'll tell you to give a specific amount after you have joined a particular ministry. again, they will tell everyone that they haven't received any salary for many months yet they are still doing it for the Lord. then they will preach that giving money to the preacher is really a must and that it is ethical. after that, the fifth sign will eventually show itself.

contrast. they will tell everyone that it is holy to serve the Lord full time while preaching the gospel of Paul; "do not feed the lazy." they will impose many rules but they will be the first one to break it. they will boast that if the whole ministry needs to be put in disciplinary action-even there'll be no one standing in front- they should be disciplined. it's all bragging.

sixth sign is nothingness. you followed their preaching yet nothing. it made your life worst as a matter of fact. even your family's against you. your friends see you as a backslider.

you used to be a rose. your principles are orange. your life is a burgundy. yet they turn the colors into its most ugliest. they are rose rust.

War and Hate

after learning about the evil things happened during the world war II i decided to bash people who supprt war. war destroys everything; your shelter and eventually, your life. you'll realize that your relationship with other people is starting to freeze. you're beginning to doubt all actions, even if it's done by a family member. you're beginning to hate. hate for those who attacked your country. hate for those who started the war. hate for those who didn't help you during the war. pure hatred.

i thought about the topic supposedly i should have been writing right now but i was surfing in the internet this morning and found an article and the video of DANIEL PEARL.

maybe most of you are not aware who he is. he is a an american jew journalist who was kidnapped and beheaded by a militant group who called themselves: The National Movement for the Restoration of Pakistani Sovereignty. they're demanding-up to now-that the united states should release the pakistani terror detainees and the release of the halted shipment of f-16 fighter jets to the pakistani government.

daniel pearl's wife was pregnant that time. his son was born few months after his death. adam is his first child, and he didn't see him. daniel pearl was handcuffed and beheaded by cutting his neck first by a knife. slow and painful death was executed by those people who sought sovereignty for their own government. sovereignty.

what is sovereignty? it is the freedom from external control. those militant group wants their country free from american control. in short they want freedom. funny and pathetic.

freedom. they didn't even give freedom to daniel pearl so why are they asking for such sacred thing. after all, united states is not really in control. the thing is, the pakistani government think like americans that's why they thought united states is in control.

i hate war. everyone knows i didn't like Bush's actions. war is not the answer for everything. violence is not the answer for everything. those militant groups knew that too. their children are dying because of war, because of violence so why are they also doing those things? why are they killing innocent people. people who can't fight them. people like daniel pearl, the young american soldiers shot and burned, the beheaded iraqi nationalist guard, the beheaded russian diplomat, other russian diplomats who were shot, and many more. people who just can't defend themselves.

their reason would be; because it also happened to them. then, why are they also killing each other? is vengeance the answer to violence?

in the philippines, there's also a latin-american who was beheaded by the abu sayyaf. abu sayyaf also beheaded a filipino soldier. the video footage was shown to the american soldiers. another pathetic move from the philippine government with their pathetic reason: to enrage the american soldiers. whereas they decided that the american soldiers should not participate in any combats.

in indonesia, christians are beheaded. gender and age won't matter. last october 30, 2005, three christian girls -ages 15-17- were beheaded on their way to the school. in sulawesi, thousand christians were killed because of a rumor that a muslim girl was raped by a christian. may 2005, a nearby town in tentena was bombed. it's a predominantly christian town. twenty-two people were killed. there were also two 17-year old girls shot days after the burning.

i am not assuming who's the real victim in this christian-muslim war but i hope muslims around the world stop claiming that they are being discriminated and that they are the only victims in this situation.

jews were almost wiped out during the world war II. few of them are left and up to now they're are still discriminated not only by muslims but also by christians.

christians are also discriminated by many different religions. jews bashed christians since Jesus' time. atheists branded christians as monkey-worshippers. muslims bashed christians because they considered Jesus as a prophet not a God. the movie; passion of the Christ, was banded in many islamic countries because of the law that prophet's life should not be featured in any movie or film. jews described it as anti-semitic.

atheists are protesting that the "in God we trust" in dollar bills should be removed. prayers in public schools should not be implemented. muslim militants want christians and jews wiped out of this world. aryans want jews wiped out.

in many dominant christian countries like philippines, christians are bashing each other. the roman catholics and the protestants are still arguing who is the true christian. other christians are also destroying each other in national television. many preachers declared themselves as the Messiah and those who won't follow them will go to hell.

all of this, started because of war and hate. why don't we just live our lives and help each other. we can't force everyone to believe what we believe. we shouldn't hurt someone whose faith is different from us. we should stop hating each other.

i'm a Christian and for Christians out there i just want to remind you: Jesus is not forcing himself to anyone.